When I had the tracking collar put on me I realized that man was not innocent. They did strange things that my mind could not comprehend. But I did not feel fear. I have seen people in awe of me and I never felt fear but when the people lured me with the dead carcass I thought they were helping me. I thought they realized that I had a weak female in my pride and they where helping me feed her. I did not need their help and that is where I went wrong. That is where my instincts as a lion crossed over from being natural. Normally I would not think about accepting food from humans.

When they put the light on me and shot me and I felt the pain.  The pain came more and more slowly. It was like it has a poison that ran all through my body and started to paralyze me. I tried to fight it off. When they sent me to heaven finally time I saw them for who they are and I crossed a river of great darkness. I crossed a river of great sickness and I realize that these men are sick men. If they were born in my pride I would have killed them long ago, but humans do not kill. They do not kill their mentally sick and they are allowed to keep breeding and it taints the gene pool. This does not happen in the wild.

I see that these men think that they are strong. They think that they have control of us but they don’t. they think that if they kill us that they control the nature and the energy that run through us but they do not understand our ways. They do not realize that what they do cuts away at their souls and the more they do it the darker their soul gets.

They do not realize that we are the purity that this earth has left. We are the planet. When they kill us they are poisoning the field of energy that runs through all things. I have seen your cities and have seen inside your homes and I fear for you and I fear now for my lands because the earth is so ill and there are so little people who are fighting for it to continuing breathing.

I see that so many people want to talk about how what happened to me is so unjust but this is a common practice and I am just one of hundreds. People want to rant and rave but they do nothing to actually create change. If there was something wrong in the environment in my pride we would move away or we would pray to the energy of life to bring back the health of the lands. All animals do this. We are one with our lands. But I watch people and they scream and rant and rave but nothing gets done and it is left up to a small percentage of people who have very little money and resources to keep fighting.

I am glad that people look at me and feel something but it will only bring me hope if people change their lives. Your world is very sick.”

I asked him, “What is your Heaven like?”

He responded,

“I have not fully rested for the shock of inhumanity of my death has pulled me to keep watching. The death continues and the dark energy around these being swarms my lands. All animals are in fear and I feel like it is up to me to watch over my land and to make sure that the animals feel safe.

I still feel the pain where the dark went through me and released its poison. I still feel the confusion of the intense pain.

An animal like me never leaves its pride. When a lion like me gets old and is taken down by a younger lion it is what is best for the pride. This is not best. The younger lion was not ready. He did not learn enough about himself or the pride to make such decisions.

If there is a heaven for me then I know that it is a place with out humans. Humans have moved so far away from their instincts and their true nature.

I am not going to tell you that I feel at peace. I will not feel peace until this is resolved. I understand that I am dead. I understand that I am not in body but my consciousness is very much still in my land and this is where I need to be. If I needed to be somewhere else. I would be somewhere else.

I want to tell people that in order for you to get the feeling of satisfaction in your life’s you have to stop being so selfish and start helping others. You need to look inside your own communities and make it a safer place. Once you can do that then you can branch out to the animals of the world. I know that there are people that fight to save the animals and make sure they do not suffer in the hands of others. For those people I am very thankful but there needs to be more of you. This needs to be a priority. People know longer know how to focus on tasks that heal that planet. They pursue more selfish goals. This is not about money. This is about keeping the energy of our ecosystem alive and healthy. Help others. Help the animals. Stay on task.”